The Love of My Life

You...

I hate you but I miss you and I love you but I hate you and I long for you and
I miss every single thing about you

I love you when you manifest your love towards me
I love the way you soothe my sore mind
I love the way you smile at me
I love the way you touch me
I love the way you look into my eyes
I love the way you kiss me
I love the way you treat me when you show that you love me
I love almost everything about you

I hate you when you hurt me most
I hate you when you gave me that ignorance bliss
I hate it when you keep your distance away at the time I want to swim in the depth of your soul
I hate it when you want me to understand you but you won't let me
I hate you when you kept your silence
I hate you when you made me weep my sleepless nights


When you hurt me and I felt the pain to the core of my being,

I am damn ANGRY at you for hurting me
I am damn MAD at you for doing this to me
I loathe even the slightest thought of you
I hate even listening to your music
I detest the mention of your name on air


When I'm hurt by YOU and I'm in pain and I'm so lonely,

I miss your presence in the my emptiness of my heart
I dream of you in my disturbed sleepsI miss your warm embrace
I think of you when I'm resting
I think of you when I'm feeling the pain you caused
I think of you when I'm alone
I think of you in almost everything I do


My dear man,

Tell me what should I do...
Should I just bury you in time?
Should I be angry at you (shouldn't I be for the pain you caused?) ?
Should I, shouldn't I, could I, wouldn't I...?

I'm a perplexed woman...but bear this in mind, for I certainly can't deny and can't lie to myself...
that I LOVE YOU... Damn it, I DO... still do... still...and will ALWAYS do.

The Perplexed Me.